How can everything just, fall. I mean it was going really well. And then I got sick, an then It got bad. And everyone keeps trying to tell me its going to be fine, but noone listens. Noone understands. That fear. That hate. The pain.
My medication has started and I feel like labels me. Like people are treating me differently. And I just can’t be happy. No matter how I fake it, or laugh at jokes, it just feels like I’m a million miles away from everything, and I can hear myself talking, laughing, but I don’t feel it.
Sometimes I think I’m going crazy. Others I just feel heavy, and I don’t want to get out of bed. I can’t sleep. The medication was supposed to help but I guess it isn’t. They said 6 weeks and it will take effect…but I don’t know if I can wait for it like this.